I am not a religious person, nor even spiritual. I have always been more of the sciencey type. Not so much wondering the “why” of things, but more the “how”. I don’t disbelieve in the thought of a higher power and all that, and have full respect for people who do believe, but I’ve never been able to wrap my brain around there being some cool guy/girl/alien out there who just… loves everyone. It’s totally possible of course and I am not writing this to start a discussion on religion, I am just saying that for me, my mind is rooted in what I can see, hear, taste, touch and smell (sometimes I wish it wasn’t rooted in things I can smell – amirite?).
But I can’t help but feel that sometimes the universe/big guy up there/big girl up there/big alien up there has something to tell me. It’s usually a message like, “Hey, dummy, you should probably wise up a little!” and though I firmly believe I create my own destiny, I also can’t help but shake my head sometimes at the way things work out for me. I wonder if just maybe there is a force out there taking in my dreams and my efforts and giving me that extra push forward. Maybe. But then I think “nahhhh…”
Example time. I recently left a toxic work environment to pursue something else for myself. No giant revelation there, but I feel it was a good step that has led me to many other good things. I have my inner peace back and it’s great. That peace allowed me to do something I’ve wanted to do for a long time – apply for a freelance writing position. I’m still your average 9-to-5 office dweller, but I was surprised that after applying for this freelance gig, I got a response just a few hours later. They hired me after reading my samples! I was blown away. I had thought about it for so long, being a fan of this publication, and thought I just wasn’t good enough for that kind of thing. Sure I like to write, but to be an actual writer? Very different things.
Being published is something I have wanted for a very long time. I had mostly given up on that dream, but now it’s really happening. I couldn’t be happier with where my life choices have taken me recently and I feel like I am on the right path for me, for the first time in quite a few years. While I know it was my own doing, I also can’t shake the notion that maybe – just maybe – a lil’ green dude circling the galaxy in his spaceship is sending me a signal, a cosmic high-five from the universe, saying, “Right on, sista.”
I guess I just feel kinda like this today… (Who remembers this classic movie?!)